da_phetus' Journal

8:46pm: to my brother and sister,
You got to stay fresh, cause if you stop you stagnating.


love,
stephan

8:49pm: i love

9:45pm: day 2.

11:56pm: day 1.

4:54pm: 5 times
group of 57 people in a room. Three dumb killers. Out of the 57 people, I am singled out. Out of 57 people this main head honcho notices me and says to his buddies that I have the most powerful mind. He threatens me and ask me to get up. I get up and on my own I face the wall. This fucker is holding a gloc, and proceeds to fire five bullets into my back. It does not feel good to get shot, but the bullets fired knock me out, I think it was about two minutes and eighteen seconds in which i am unconscious. Suddenly i awake and regain consciousness. I spot this red fire extinguisher and proceed to grab it off the hook, sporadically i start spraying the shit to muffle the room, and it does a great job. I knock out the head honcho with the empty red fire extinguisher, not once, but twice, because this fucker awoke five minutes after the first blow. Everyone get's out free after this hostage take over. Full chromed out rims on the 4runner, which was my escape vehicle, solid!!!

So i have been stabbed and shot, feeling the knife of a punctured skin, the burn of a fresh bullet piercing the skin. i should have died each time, but i awake fully healed each time after the incident and fuck shit up as if none of the stabbing and shooting has ever happended to me. Can you kill me? I must be invincible. I've wished death for a long time. "Cuts for luck, scars for freedom".

I have nothing to be afraid of.

Usually when someone dies in there dream they wake up before they actually die. I wake up after i die or perhaps i can't die.

Enjoy.

3:06pm: RE: CAN FUCKIN SLEEP
exactly

8:51pm: last nights dream--7239056
I awake in my sleep! The day is the present day. The year is _____ it doesn't matter because who knows what fucking year it is. I am asleep, but i suddenly wake up to answer the person knocking at my door. I get up and answer the door. To my surprise the person standing at my door is A, one of the hottest bitches I have ever seen. She is standing there with an emotionless face. I invite her into my domain and we bullshit for a while. I ask what she has been up too, and she replies with the usual college bullshit. Unsurprisingly, we have sex. I eat her pussy. She sucks my cock. Then we start fucking, doing different kamu sutra stuff. She gets multiple orgasms and I never cum one bit,this sucks. After the sex, we proceed to walk skyline, along with thousands of other people, but the shit seems stagnant, while on the walk I run onto my ex-girlfriend, she say's, "what's up". I say whats up. and me and my-ex bullshit, still friends. We've been friends since grade school, so it don't really matter. we've been connected for such a long time, it don't matter no more. It is not wierd because the love was _____, unexplainable, so no mattter what, friends will always be there. Anyways, this lady friend that i was having intercourse with, well suddenly i decided to stop, and contemplate this shit. What did I want, What did she want? From the looks of it she don't know what she want and from my looks of the shit; i know what i want, but i am sure i won't get it because ______ works in funny ways. She wanted instant gratification, i didn't! i wanted a everlasting thing, but that shit is hard to find these days. I awake from my dream, cold sweats, wondering what the fuck was going on. Was it a dream in the past or was it the future? Should I confront this or should I not? Should I fight it or should I let it go? By the way this was the dream i had last night. I should have wrote this right when it happen, so the shit could be fresh. oh well, i am not sorry. I am drunk, but i had this dream lastnight

12:20pm: wow
sean is my brother. He is one badass fucker.